May 2012
12 posts
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The smoke build up has really gotten
to me, and the cigarettes burn
without warning,
don’t you know the hollow walls
make me lonely?
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Hole || Dying (Original Demo)
Celebrity Skin...
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“My daddy told me there’s a lot of fish in the sea
There’s just a...”
– Ninja in Die Antwoord || Fatty Boom Boom
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What have we left if
all we gave is all
we had?
I don’t often think of
the ways you’ve destroyed
me,
but simply the absurdity
of what you let him
do to you.
I give all I have
and then you left,
leaving me
with these thoughts
beginning to reach
empty.
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Casiotone for the Painfully Alone || Attic Room
...
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Trying some new recipes, I made up, tonight. I'm...
I haven’t seen the light yet,
the dawn hasn’t broken
through all of the windows,
and I’m getting so lonely
without you.
The night hasn’t crept upon
the windowsill tonight,
I wonder why,
maybe the lonliness is
finally getting to me.
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I’m finally to the end of the road,
it’s not where we wanted to go,
the wheels half turned and
I’m not ready for home.
What do you know,
the world is on it’s own,
the music is running down low,
and I’m just not ready to go home.
Well here we go,
onto the empty pavement
over the hills, to and fro,
I guess this is where get off
I wouldn’t call this...
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Marlboro boxes line my desk,
and an ashtray has fallen beside my bed,
I can’t muster up the words,
so I’ll write what I know.
The sky is without clouds today,
I wonder who’ll clean up this mess,
and the sun without proper filtration
could kill us all.
I’m lonely without you
when you’re so far away,
gentle tones of folk ring
in my ears,
reminding me of...
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I smoke my cigarettes without you
but that’s not saying much,
it’s just the lonliness comes in waves,
and that’s the first thing that always
gets me.
April 2012
3 posts
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“mountain of the dead
are you listening
you’re gonna lose so much
if the lightning’s going by
you’ve already lost so much
if the moon has gone by
all the good things
are asleep in the human world
it’s made more room
for the dark to walk around
my heart is sick and i didn’t make it out
speak to all my friends whose names i don’t remember now...
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It’s far too late early to fall asleep for the night, I might be better off staying up til tomorrow’s light, or maybe the bowl mask the mind enough for a night of stress free sleep.
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Twelve a.m. on the west coast and nearly waking for some on the east, I wonder how long the transition will take? I wonder if it’ll be instant or the standard time for ease.
March 2012
10 posts
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Et cetera and such, You’re especially beautiful just between sleeping and waking up. I love the way Your chest falls beneath the rest and the back rises and falls ever so gently, oh sweetie, the way Your skin glows in every type of light, it fills my heart with an anxious rate, but only because you’re so incredible in many ways. Et cetera and such, I love you so, and more every day.
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You’re early to the bed and late in the rise, our bodies are lovely but only a mere beginning, troubled waters come with time and effort to be, and I’m wondering how an eternity will really be.
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Incredibly, I’m false, but I don’t believe history necessarily repeats, isn’t that what you’d expect, even from me? I’m false, there’s not much to me, but miracles are falsely believed, so why can’t it happen again for me? But really, I’m false, and it’s never been more clear, fell in love with a woman and now she isn’t even here, what...
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Breathe in, breathe out. Everything feels too strung out, how unlucky to be the moth on this ceiling, I’ve smiled all day until you fell asleep, and then cried about nothing except for the sea, the spider felt lost but ultra hungry, and the pillow swallowed just the same as the ocean, and all the spiders desires quenched with ease. Breathe in, breathe out.
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“Bless this tiny alley
We have fallen from tall buildings
We have fallen
Bless...”
– Okkervil River|| For the Captain
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Nothing in this house was free, I poured my emotions out to get these, to get me where I never expected, all alone with possessions made of mounting memories. No, nothing in this house was free, this lamp alone was from our twelve month endurance, that all ended so abruptly. The cat whom had been yours for a few days, remains, and that book you left for me, well that lines the shelf...
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If only the rain wouldn’t fall with such charm, then I wouldn’t be entrapped in a lonely stare. The window’s open and the curtains are closed, the damp air can’t catch but I’m going to remain posed, waiting for the severity of the situation to get to me.
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Look at me, sweetie, this is not the loneliness you seek, look at me, look me up and down until your blind from the lack of change within me. Look at me, I’m all the colors you don’t need, look at me, I’m not the one with the watery soul needed to meld to your icy, oh dear, look at me, I’m nothing like what you want your forever to be.
January 2012
9 posts
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Is everything okay, I can feel your breath on my lips, is everything okay, darling, my heart is beginning to shudder? The sun in your eyes no longer glows with brilliance untold, baby, is everything alright? One more sign and I’ll have to steal you away, sweetie, even if just for the night..
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I’m empty, lack of the humanistic, more exotic, I once calculated the trees in a forest just for the mathematics, I’m the factor that doesn’t really matter, but I am the most prime there will ever be.
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“What do you know,” the wolf swallows the moon, except just the soul, he’s gathered the sheep, fed them all full, whispered in the moonless night, “the moon’s restless nature, finally found a home.”
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“Can’t you hear the willows weeping?
Can’t you hear them as the...”
– The Deep Dark Woods || Nancy
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“how selfish for time to conclude”
– Songs: Ohia || Goodnight Lover
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I need to find friends in Sacramento.
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I need the night to keep away
the sun’s light ,
I need the glow of the moon,
to keep my mind.
I’ve never felt so dangerous,
but this isn’t a cry,
everything is okay,
I just need the night.
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December 2011
4 posts
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I have rejected all thoughts of good deeds.
I’m tired of being the one without needs.
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November 2011
39 posts
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Pokemon Tower Defense is addicting. Far too addicting.. PTD
Just test it.
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Fuck the loneliness associated with distance.
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Dig yourself deep,
ebb and flow into
the ditch you go.
You wretched spirit,
you empty soul,
I’m casting you away,
before I lose my whole.
Base yourself against
the floor and push
my body to the walls,
I’m safe, but baby,
you’re gone,
and no one has to know.
In the matter of 2 days, I have gotten three people addicted to Pokemon Tower Defense, so much so, that I have been unable to play because they’re hogging the computer. Ha.
I really just want to play Pokemon Tower Defense. :o
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Smoking my last cigarette and waiting
for you tonight,
I’m unsure if you’ll understand, but I need
you the most when the lights are dim,
and my lungs are empty because
you bring up my mind, away from
all the stressors and the nights.
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Citadel (Tenskwatawa)||Songs: Ohia
close to the...
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Touching the tips of the drips of your tears, waiting for the smoke to settle, as soon as the world gives into you, your body will be or should I say no longer be, a part of me.
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I’m smoking these cigarettes, my body’s growing anxious of the rain that is near, and I blow my smoke in peace, the rain will be my final release of all that is near, my mind will finally be set, ready to be alone.
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You pit my body without much force, I’d like it better if you’d just fall beneath these floorboards, I’d take away your core just like you’ve always done to me, but I’m not the same as you, darlin, I’d rather pick apart my mind and hang you in my words.